Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I know it's me they're talkin' about.

I hate today.

It'll all pass and I'll feel upbeat and awesome again...

...BUT...

Right now, at this moment, I hate the living bejesus out of today and want to beat the tar out of it with these (*shakes fists*). And it's not just one thing. It's not just that today I found out we're 0 for 3. That stings horribly because hopes were (way too) high but hey, I guess I can have a frozen lemon martini in Disney World instead of morning sickness. And it means more trying, wink wink, nudge nudge. But still. We have names picked out, for crying out loud. We don't want to waste them on dogs. Honestly...I'm painfully bummed.

Like I said, it's not just that.

I have a very "don't give a fuck" attitude right now.  It's not pleasant, I know. I'm always "the backbone", the glue, the thinker and planner. Things get done because I get them done. I'm not complaining, I'm just making note.

Today, my Facebook (Lord help me) status was something like "I remember when all I had to worry about was what kind of ice cream I wanted, if I should play legos or Barbies, and what time The Muppet Show was on". Sure, I still have to decided what ice cream I want...and I worry about what I want to do on Saturday nights and have to remember what tim Adventure Time is on. But that's when I'm DONE dealing with the stress of being an ad-ult.

I need stress management skills beyond just talking to Todd. Don't get me wrong, I know I'm very lucky to have someone that loves me to help absorb my stress. But when there are 2 stressed people who love each other trying to absorb each other's stress...it's like QUAD-STRESS! And there's not enough tequila in the world to ease that successfully.

These is just a phase and it'll pass. It's like when whats-her-face painted all those flowers that look like vaginas. I just hope I snap out of it soon...like by the time I wake up tomorrow...because, well, no one wants a picture of flowers that look like vaginas. Am I right?

Working out helps. A little.

5 comments:

juste venteux said...

Lacey I don't know how you do it, being so stressed out all the time. I couldn't handle it. I hope you find a reason to smile today. If not, lemmw know. I know a really good fart joke!

Miss Cleveland 1979 said...

Thanks Windy!! It'll all shape up. I have (a little) faith.

The Drunken Gnome said...

I'm sorry to hear about your day and the 0-3 situation. It will happen when the time is right. Maybe during your trip you can de-stress and your body will be ready. At least it's fun trying.

Karen said...

0-3 with a partner you love is better than single parenting to 3, and a partner you despise;) You're loved. That makes life easier. Everything comes at it's own time.

Miss Cleveland 1979 said...

I'm not going to tell you you're better off because I can't possibly understand your situation or how you're feeling but I will say this...that guy...well, he's a scumbag. But that's just my personal opinion!