And you give yourself away.

My cell phone had to be replaced because it crashed like a computer or so I was informed. I had to not only refill my entire phonebook but download all of my ringtones as well. I figured if I had to go through the trouble of downloading all these rings again, I might want to update some of the ones I was getting tired of. I was having the most difficulty finding one for my best buddy, Johnny Switchblade. We spent some good time together this weekend. I had a lot of fun with him and he qwacked me up. That's totally off the subject though. So rather than get him riled up by assigning Boston's "More Than a Feelin'", I kept hunting. For comedic value, I decided it was between "Jack and Diane" or "I Can't Live With or Without You" as either would be entertaining considering people have told me we'll end up together yet we won't...even if he knows when my menstrual cycle is going to end and feels comfortable enough to fart in front of me ALL THE TIME. Our relationship is a retarded one and I dig it. So I based my choice on which ring actually SOUNDED cooler and went with the U2 hit.

A few minutes ago, I was previewing all my new rings and came to that one and managed, during a 23 second ringtone or whatever, to burst into tears and sink into a feeling of utter low. It has nothing to do with Johnny or the ringtone or U2. I think I'm just losing bits and pieces of my brain these days...or my heart...and something about the ringtone version of that song...all peaceful and low and lacking Bono's somewhat irritating (though I do love that song and would like to shag during it) low tones...made me lose it. I've pretty much been waiting to cry all day. Bono and beer finally brought that to fruition. Am I just depressed these days? Am I just lonely? Am I just a chick? Am I in love with someone that I can't live with (because of him) or without(because of me)? Or is the song just that moving? I am chock full of something rotten and my eyes are red and puffy and my lips are swollen. I never mean to be egotistical but I only consider myself beautiful when I cry.

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she’s got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you
With or without you